American Twilight: The Golden Gate Exposition of 1939

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In 1939, San Francisco’s Treasure Island was the site for the Golden Gate Exposition, a showcase dedicated to a world beginning to emerge from the Great Depression. The Exposition was a masterpiece of Art Deco design and, with California comfortably distant from Europe, tinges of optimism must’ve remained awhile; I imagine the fall of France ended all that.

The Exposition even won periodic mention in the little Arroyo Grande Herald-Recorder, including this October 1939 display ad. I think the Greyhound station was in the Olohan Building, whose basement is now home to Klondike Pizza. A Klondike pizza is also good for transient moments of optimism, if I may be allowed to editorialize.

What had to be a highlight of the Exposition came in June and July 1939, when most of the Pacific Fleet, just off maneuvers, sailed into San Francisco Bay for a visit. Many years ago, my wife and my sons and I spent a delightful visit to our favorite city during Fleet Week, when we saw the Blue Angels, sailors from twenty nations, and, on a Muni Bus, a bearded lady (who was very nice) and a man who could do 360s with his dentures. I preferred the visits to the submarine Pompanito and the Liberty Ship Jeremiah O’Brien, but I’m built that way, I guess.

Here’s an article from an Oakland newspaper—with little seeming regard for what we’d call “national security” today— about the ships, and their 40,000 men, headed for the Exposition:


And here, also from British Pathe, is a remarkable video as the fleet arrives, led by battleships, then a light cruiser and finally the preciuus carriers. And then, best of all, happy sailors coming ashore for liberty.


The scale of these ships is hard to imagine, even though they’re relatively small when compared to modern aircraft carriers. A Pennsylvania-class battleship, like the one in the video below, displaced 32,000 tons, was 600 feet long and carried a complement of about 60 officers, 70 Marines and 1,000 enlisted men. These ships were small cities. And small cities need the mail delivered, even in mid-Caribbean. This film is from the early 1930s:


And the battleship in the newsreel—you had to know this was coming—was, of course, USS Arizona, lost with 1100 crew, including two sailors who were raised in Arroyo Grande, on December 7, 1941.

Maybe it’s just me, but I am a devoted fan of American film, and as a cultural barometer, 1939 was a sign of renewed confidence in the same way the Exposition was. My parents began dating that year, when their movie dates might’ve included The Wizard of Oz, Stagecoach, Goodbye Mr. Chips, Ninotchka, Destry Rides Again and Gone With the Wind.

And that brief moment of renewed self-confidence, of hope, is what makes the images of these ships and their young men so poignant to me. These are the fates of some of the ships cited in the Oakland newspaper article above:

Downes and Cassin in the aftermath of the Pearl Harbor attack. The battleship Pennsylvania, also in drydock that day, is just beyond.



As devastating as the photograph above is, both destroyers were salvaged, rebuilt and returned to duty, as were the damaged battleships. One of them, Nevada, which made a heroic run under attack for the Pearl Harbor exit channel, was, on June 6, 1944, hurling 14-inch shells at the Germans defending the Normandy invasion beaches. Nevada, in fact, was granted the honor of firing the opening salvo that day.

One of my favorite lessons in U.S. History was devoted to the construction of the Oakland Bay Bridge, truly, to steal a term, an engineering marvel. It, and its sister bridge, are emblematic of the way we responded to the Great Depression.

We responded to the shattering of our confidence at Pearl Harbor with new ships and old ships pulled to the surface from Pearl Harbor mud and made new again. Vast fleets of warplanes, tanks, trucks, artillery and small arms, Spam and K-ration Lucky Strikes, a labor force that went to war— a third them women and many of them killed in factory accidents—and over 400,000 young men killed in combat, all of these made up our response.

These things happened because of a generation that, before the war, was dismissed by intellectuals as pleasure-seeking, selfish and shallow. This was my parents’ generation. My parents were hard-working, generous and deeply read. I became a history teacher because of the values they instilled in me.

Learning about the Exposition, in what remains—after a fair amount of European travel (Dublin, London, Edinburgh, Paris, Nice, Amsterdam, Munich, Salzburg, Florence, Venice, Rome) with twenty to forty of my closest teenaged friends, my students—the city I love the most. The Exposition reminded me of my mother and father and their generation. If this was a twilight time in our history, followed by four years of wartime dark, we were still here in the morning.






























The New Jerusalem

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Elizabeth, Thomas and I were watching the CNN series on the movies last night, and the installment we saw focused on the Eighties.

And, of course, Working Girl had to be one of the movies the documentary noted. They could’ve spent a lot more time on it, in my opinion.

If the big New Jersey Hair of Melanie Griffith and Joan Cusack is clearly dated, the film and its issues aren’t. This is a film about the obstacles women face, directed and written, I am proud to say, with great sympathy, by men.

I think it’s Mike Nichols’ finest film.

And I might still say that had Nichols ended Working Girl after the first three minutes.

The cinematography is stunning; the opening sequence, shot from a helicopter, is a loving study of the Statue of Liberty that then pulls back to reveal Southern Manhattan–including, tragically, the Twin Towers–the Jersey shore and the the camera swoops in again, gliding alongside the Staten Island Ferry until the dissolve that takes us to the ferry bench where, in an intimate closeup, Melanie Griffith and Joan Cusack share a birthday cupcake.

It is glorious, as is Carly Simon’s song “Let the River Run.”

This introduced me to a city that terrified me until I saw the Cooper Union, where Lincoln delivered the 1860 speech that made him president, saw the lobby and the city below the observation deck of the Empire State Building and saw, miraculously, the Chrysler building.

It took me two tries to “get” Paris. I fell in love with New York almost immediately. This stunning piece of film-making made that possible.

And I just found this version of Carly Simon’s song, from one of those European song competition shows, La Voz. The singer is Cuban-Spanish, her name is Lieta Molinet, and she nails it. If you are a female-type person, you might just notice that one of the male judges is both entranced and gorgeous. Be that as it may, I think this is a stunning performance of a stunning song.





For Paris, where there will be no fireworks. With love.

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It sounds so pretentious–for an Arroyo Grande boy, raised with heifers and chickens—a little boy so sheltered that he was almost overcome by the velvet-suited Santa on the mezzanine of Riley’s Department Store in San Luis Obispo, California–but I miss Paris.

I didn’t get it the first time I took my students to the great city. I think I was overwhelmed. The second time, with my literature teaching partner, Amber Derbidge, and our wonderful Breton tour guide, Freddy, I got it.

It helped, I think, that we’d came south from Anne Frank’s Amsterdam, then through the Ardennes, and finally across Northern France–a stretch of the trip that had begun at Metz, where we saw trout feeding, describing ringlets on the surface of the Moselle, just like the ones I’d tried so hard to catch in the Arroyo Grande Creek when I was little.

At Verdun, a museum guide took me aside and whispered “Your students are so respectful,” which might just be one of the greatest compliments I’ve ever received, because she confirmed to me that they’d learned, in our classroom, what I’d taught them about Verdun.

Some of my students at Douaumont. 100,000 French and German soldiers
were killed or wounded in the struggle to capture this fort.


We were greeted, in fact, with immense kindness. At Reims—I’d used, early in our school year, both Bernard Shaw’s St. Joan and Shakespeare’s Henry V to teach my students the meaning of nationalism —a local woman, delighted to meet young Americans, insisted on giving us a tour of the cathedral, one that wasn’t on our schedule.

We didn’t mind because she was so happy and she made us happy, too. It was Rockefeller Foundation money that was helping to repair shell damage to the cathedral facade from the Great War, and even though none of us could be mistaken for a Rockefeller, the important part, for this lovely woman, was that we were Americans.

We reached the coast and the D-Day beaches and the American Cemetery above Colleville-sur-Mer, where we found a local farmworker, Domingo Martinez, a Mexican-American, a member of the 79th Infantry Division, who was killed by fragments from a German .88 shell near Le Bot in July 1944.

At Private Martinez’s grave.


Then, after the cruelty of the battlefields, we ended this trip in Paris. This time I realized how alive Paris is. I got it. I was as enchanted as a Nebraska farm boy—not that far a remove from my actual childhood near the farm fields that border the coast of central California—and when I briefly got lost in the Latin Quarter, I was unafraid. There was far too much for me to explore. I would get back to my students. Eventually.

In the classroom, I used to share the video below with my students to introduce them to my favorite unit—Nineteenth Century urban history, or La Belle Epoque—and they, and I, needed the sustenance we got here, in this chapter, if we were to survive the heartbreak of the First World War.

This year, another heartbreak—another disaster, this time in Covid—has forced the cancellation of the Eiffel Tower’s spectacular fireworks show.

So this blog post is a very little attempt to make up for what we’ll miss this New Year’s Eve. It’s one of several love letters I’ve written to Paris, where my father, an American GI—he spent two years away from my Irish-American Mom, seen here with my big sister—was a tourist in the late fall of 1944.


To teach what I feel to my students, I made this video for them. It’s oddly matched to an oddly beautiful song, “Bittersweet Symphony,” by The Verve, a song that in its own way, is a kind of masterpiece.

Joyeux Noel, my friends.

My (very short) Journey through French Cinema

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Filmmaker Barry Galperin.

One of the great joys of my teaching career was getting approached by this young man when he was a junior at Arroyo Grande High School. He had the sheer audacity—the kind that’s required of directors—to ask me to design a high school semester course in film history.

Which I did, because it was Barry’s idea, which made it an honor.

I once designed a course in Cultural Anthropology, so this was only my second attempt at inventing a class from scratch. But the Grand Poobahs at UC Berkley approved that course and, to my delight, they approved this one, too.

Designing the film course took me a long time, but I don’t much mind creating things. The only sadness was that I didn’t have room on my schedule to teach it—or to watch again films ranging from Chaplin’s The Gold Rush to Preston Sturges’ Easy Living (I have a great fondness for the actress Jean Arthur, who also finds James Stewart’s courage for him in Mr. Smith Goes to Washington) to John Ford’s The Searchers to Ridley Scott’s Blade Runner.

But I was pretty proud of myself—almost but not nearly as much as I am of Barry, a now-seasoned professional who directs and writes screenplays. He is possessed of immense courage.

Last night, I had an immense and badly-needed dose of humility. I was merely channel-surfing when—damn you, PBS!—I tuned in, midway, into a three-hour documentary from 2016, My Journey through French Cinema, about the critic Bertrand Tavernier.

No, I had no idea who he was.

The film was subtitled, but the French the narrators spoke bore no resemblance to the proper names I was reading in the subtitles. I was always sorry that I did not take French in my years as an AGHS student. The teacher, Mrs. Koehn, was enormously attractive to us teenaged boys. She took to driving a convertible MG at high speed in her later years, which endeared her to me in a whole new way when she became my teaching colleague.

But this documentary cured me of learning French. I could never force my American mouth to make sounds like that.

That’s not the point. The point that was brought home to me was how little I actually know about film.

The scenes they selected took my breath away—I don’t know enough yet to connect the scenes with their films—but I saw an interior scene with both the camera and three characters in constant motion until a lovely young woman suddenly uses a bottle to bludgeon her older lover unconscious. I saw another man die in a rollover car accident shot from both outside and inside the car, punctuated, at its end, by a surviving tire in its rim careening across the road. There were criminal escapes through tunnels and sudden screaming matches between couples who only seemed comfortably married and a Paris street scene with two young women chanting casually amid the sidewalk crowds they pass, while heads turn in their passage. There were exterior scenes, young couples walking beneath trees and holding hands in dappled sunlight, that would’ve made Renoir weep. There was a sudden and violent street robbery, shot in Milan with a hidden camera, in front of a shocked crowd who would learn only much later that they’d been film extras.

There was Belmondo, an ultra-cool alloy of Bogart and Paul Newman.

There were, of course, entire Gauloises assembly lines of cigarettes smoked.

Bertrand Tavernier

I watched all of this without breathing too much. It was a wonderful humbling to realize how much you don’t know.

It was touching to feel your heart melt a little in watching the actress Corinne Marchand, her character doomed by cancer, sing as she descends a staircase in one of Hausmann’s Paris parks in a scene, filmed so gracefully, and sixty years ago, that it makes you fall in love with her.

It was exciting to know that I, even at sixty-eight, have so many films yet to watch, and that they are gifts from the French.

I spent most of my life dismissive of the French, in the American manner, until my students and I, ten years ago, took a trip across northern France where the Americans and Germans had left behind a path of destruction, in 1944 and 1945, from Carentan to Metz. In the ferocity of the fighting, entire towns were reduced to splinters by bombers and shellfire and in Norman pasturelands, GI’s took scant cover in the shelter of dairy cows, their udders still filled with milk, who’d been butchered by machine-gun fire.

We were typical tourists on our trip sixty-five years after that terrible war—in European history, that’s a hiccup— when the Frenchwoman, on discovering that we were Americans, insisted on giving us a tour of St Joan’s cathedral at Reims. She was insistent precisely because we were Americans.

This was the trip when I learned to love France and the French.

This was the trip where we visited the 1916 battlefield at Verdun. Verdun will cure you forever of the myth, broadcast by simpletons, that the French are cowards. The battle lasted nine months. The taking of one fortress—Douaumont—took 100,000 lives.

There is a vast ossuary beneath the Verdun Memorial. You can see, just below plexiglas panels, enormous stacks of the bones of French and German soldiers. These are the macabre remains of a generation of young men who were lost forever to their parents. And to us.

An attendant took me aside as we toured the Memorial. “Your students are so respectful,” she whispered to me.

So that moment, and the visit to Reims, cured me forever of the belief that the French are cold people. The woman who guided us through the cathedral was so immensely proud that she was French and so immensely happy that we were Americans.

My homework, for her, will be watching the French New Wave. Merci, my friend.

Lessons on Leadership from the Dead

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In the early 2000s in Vilnius, in Lithuania, when construction workers began unearthing skeletons, they called in the anthropologists. The work these scientists do is familiar in this part of the world. Thanks to Stalin’s NKVD and Hitler’s einsatzgruppen, mass graves that would be a horror anywhere else are common in Eastern Europe.

The only place remotely familiar is Spain, where everyone knows about the mass graves, legacies of the Civil War, but no one speaks about them.

In Vilnius, the skeletons were even older than the ones left behind by Stalin and Hitler and Franco. These were Napoleon’s soldiers.

The Vilnius burials

Nearly four thousand individuals were isolated, only part of the estimated 20,000 soldiers who died here. The numbers are staggering: Napoleon had taken a multinational army of 675,000 men into Russia in 1812. Near the end of his retreat, at Russia’s western frontier, only 40,000 remained. Half of them staggered into Vilnius.



Some of the finds were fascinating. Many individuals had a notch in the front teeth of their lower jaws. This is where the stems of their clay pipes had fit. Bits of uniform cloth and infantry helmets, like this one, allowed archaeologists to match some soldiers with their units in what Napoleon called the Grand Armee.


Chemical analysis of the Vilnius bones hinted, from fragmentary nutritional evidence, at those soldiers who were more likely French and ate a diet based on wheat and those where millet was detected. These were the Italians.

By the end of the retreat, none of the Vilnius survivors was eating much at all. They’d slaughtered the horses that had drawn their baggage and then they’d begged the bewildered townsmen bare. Some starving soldiers broke into a medical office to steal the doctor’s anatomical specimens, suspended in formaldehyde.

Uniform fragments like this one revealed the final killer: The scat left behind that was evidence of typhus, the same opportunistic disease that would kill so many in Ireland’s famine thirty-five years later.


Some of the skeletons would’ve belonged to the military doctors who remained behind in Vilnius. Napoleon didn’t. He abandoned his dying army—just as he had in Egypt fourteen years before—and, wrapped in furs, safe inside a fast sled, he raced in relays of horses, killed in their harnesses, to get back to Paris, where he could minimize the news of this epic disaster, reshape it in the imperial press.

In this, he was spectacularly successful. He would make a comeback and lead let another army to spectacular failure at Waterloo two years later. This army included the troops esteemed more than any others, the Old Guard, his personal bodyguard. Many of them, tall men made taller by their bearskin helmets, were grey-mustached veterans who had been with him since the beginning. By the end, they were ironically the safest soldiers in his army. They were so venerated that they would always make up the emperor’s strategic reserve, to be used only as a last resort.

At Waterloo, that last resort came when the Guard was called on to cover the flight of the Emperor as his carriage sped, again at a horse-killing pace, toward Paris. The Old Guard would die, abandoned on the field in the moment that their emperor realized that the weight of late-arriving Prussian troops was more than his empire could bear. He realized, too, in the same moment and with perfect clarity, that his life was far more valuable than the lives of the veteran warriors who loved him the most.

The Old Guard at Waterloo


This week the president announced that “we are all warriors.” Here are warriors in New York City in a grave different only from the grave in Vilnius for the decency of its caskets and the symmetry of its trench.



But this grave, like the Vilnius grave, demonstrates some of the similarities between the emperor and the president. Like Napoleon, Trump has demonstrated a perverse genius for altering reality.

The president and his people are preparing to magically reduce the casualties of the last two months. They will claim that hospitals, eager for the Medicare money that comes with treating coronavirus patients, are inflating the numbers of admissions and, of course, the numbers of dead—the ones who lie unburied in a fleet of refrigerated trucks in Brooklyn, the trucks organized in neat rows where, in the distance, you can see the Statue of Liberty.

The president has blamed one of his more vivid leadership failures on hospitals, too. He obliquely and darkly implied that the lack of personal protective equipment was traceable to doctors, nurses and respiratory therapists who were selling the gear on some kind of coronavirus black market.

Yesterday, in the Oval Office, he quickly and sharply contradicted a nurse he was supposed to honoring when she revealed that the supplies of PPE were still sporadic and unreliable.

Nurses head to the White House to protest lack of protective ...
Trump prepares to humiliate an honored nurse.


“That’s not what I hear,” he said, without revealing, as he never does, where he’d heard it. “Many people tell me” is the closest we get to attribution from a president who constantly excoriates the background sources from the reportage of the New York Times or the Washington Post.

He was far more obvious in his repeated references to “The China Virus,” the one he claimed to have quashed at American ports of entry. But the tragic numbers in New York City came from Europe, from Heathrow and Orly and da Vinci-Fiumicino, as passengers made their transit through JFK and Newark.

When he did respond to the East Coast threat, he did so with his customary incompetence, announcing “enhanced screenings” that left hundreds funneled into Customs hallways where they had far less freedom to move than the virus did.

But these were warriors, weren’t they?

Coronavirus: US airports in disarray over screening - BBC News
JFK International, March 2020


Trump’s ignorance of history remains his greatest and most enduring personal virtue. He knows nothing about Napoleon and Russia and does not care. He refers repeatedly to “the 1917” flu. You could see his restlessness on a visit to Gettysburg, early on in what he called, early on, his “reign.” (Someone in the West Wing got him stop using this term, one he used for previous presidents, as well.) Later he passed on a visit to Belleau Wood because it was raining. He did speak, to his credit, at Normandy on the same trip, but it was transparently empty because he spoke in the same uncomprehending monotone that he reserves especially for the dead. The words written for him meant nothing to him. He was, as someone so aptly pointed out, like a sixth-grader delivering a book report about a book he hadn’t read.

And he did speak, to be fair, in the rain. In a July 4 speech, he praised the Continental Army for seizing airports from the British during the American Revolution.

And so the ignorance he so carefully cultivates—the coronavirus deaths are fake news, after all—will shield him until, God willing, he leaves office. The man who has called himself “a wartime president” will be whisked away from the battlefield.

He’ll be flown home to Mar-a-Lago where he will finally be alone with the thing he loves the most: A New York steak, very well-done, with a a side of fries and plenty of ketchup. And then there will be a thick slice of chocolate cake with two scoops of ice cream.

All he will have left behind are trenches filled with warriors. But the country will be opened again. We will have that much. And, in truth, when the trenches are covered over, the scars they leave behind will grow over and so fade away.

When the Vilnius warriors were finally unearthed, the scars there reopened. You can see it in the scowling face of the Lithuanian anthropologist. You can see it in the compassionate face of the young woman field technician as she reveals a young man who’d died nearly two centuries before she was born. What you see in both images, in both expressions, are human beings registering their humanity.

A little humanity is not too much to ask for. Unless you ask for it from the misshapen man who claims to leads us.

Our Mountain

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This photo was taken near the intersection of Huasna Road and Lopez Drive, where I grew up. Here is the story of the mountain in the photo.

This view is what would we could see very morning from one of our living room picture windows, but, for the sake of accuracy, in this order:

  • Mom’s roses. Sutter Golds were among her favorites.
  • Pasture, with Morgans, whose discharge made the roses grow. Cars would stop to watch the foal, a little stallion made up of 78% legs.
  • Row crops, with the occasional crop duster dipping saucily beyond the power lines. Sometimes they were peppers, sometimes pole beans. A little up the Valley, Mr, Ikeda favored cabbages, which are blue. Just a tad to the left of the cabbages was the beaver dam into which I fell while fishing. Ineptly.
  • The Coehlo place (Kathy). Her Dad carved a model of the old St. Patrick’s Church that was astonishing.
  • The McNeil place.
  • The Shannon place.
  • Various pumphouses and barns.
  • The man who had an airplane in his yard. Just in case.
  • By the early 1960s, just a tad to the left and atop another hill, the Ikeda place.
  • In the late 1950s, Dona Manuela Branch’s redwood home–she’d come to the Arroyo Grande Valley, pregnant, in 1837–had been just a tad more to the left. When I was very little, the home burned in the night. It gave off a spark as bright as Venus. Only the palm trees that had shaded the home, its gardens and had once shaded the family at barbecue remain today. The Ikedas take respectful care of Manuela and her family, maintaining the graveyard up a little canyon five hundred yards away from the home her devoted children had built for her.

So I grew up with this mountain, sort of. It always looked to me like the top of a head with a receding oak tree hairline.

Once there was a brushfire that came up behind it and framed the top, like the sun’s aureola at full eclipse, and that became a passage, fifty years later, in a chapter about the Battle of Petersburg. It went like this:

The Third Battle of Petersburg began in the pitch-black pre-dawn of April 2, 1865. A Union army surgeon, watching the assault from a federal fort, could see nothing until the combined muzzle flashes of thousands of Confederate rifles lit the horizon the way a brush fire will when it crowns a hilltop. When a line of flashes went black again, the doctor knew that the Union assault had carried the Confederate entrenchments.

One day, when I was in my early teens, I decided to climb it. You could access it from behind the Cherry Apple Farm. I was by myself, which was stupid, and forgot about the poison oak, which was stupider.

It took me two hours.

When I reached the top of the mountain I considered to be very close to my own personal property–emotionally, if not legally–I found out I hadn’t reached the top at all.

What neither the photo nor my many morning views as a little boy revealed was that this was actually two mountains: There’s a razorback ridge in front and, behind it and beyond it, the bald man with his receding hairline of oak trees.

I was kind of angry. It took me until almost dark to get back down, by which time my family assumed I’d been eaten by cannibals, which meant that the Eskimo Pies brought us by Frank the Foremost Dairy delivery driver–a consistently cheerful man– would last a little longer.

So it turned out that I climbed mountains just as ineptly as I fished. I would live to climb a few more. I’d help the Mission Prep kids whitewash the “M” on San Luis Mountain and fell off it twice more, spraining an ankle both times. I am not going back.

Now people live on that mountain. This kind of audacity would never have occurred to me when I was thirteen. It may seem pretentious to call it a “mountain.” Visit the Midwest. It’d be a veritable Matterhorn to folks north of the Ozark Plateau.

You can still see the backside of this mountain, but from the Nipomo Valley, to the right off the 101, as you drive north from Santa Maria. The hairline is flipped as if it were a reversed photograph.

I hold it no hard feelings. Seen from Nipomo, it’s a little bare and humbled without the oak-studded proscenium seen from its Arroyo Grande side. This gave the mountain a little romance to a little boy looking sleepily out the window on a cold morning.

Climbing it–and then finding out that I hadn’t climbed it at all–taught me a lesson in humility that I need to re-learn every day of my life.

For Yoshi, who never came back

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This photograph was taken on Bainbridge Island, Washington, on the day Executive Order 9066 was executed and these friends were separated.

There’s a good chance they never saw each other again.

When the buses came to take our Arroyo Grande, California, neighbors away on April 30, 1942, many of them—less than half—came back. I grew up here, and I don’t recognize many of the surnames in the old high school yearbooks.


One woman told me this: On the day the buses came to the high school parking lot, her mother saw a line of high-school girls, some Japanese, some not, walking up Crown Hill, walking up toward their high school, holding hands and sobbing.

Arroyo Grande’s Japanese-Americans went first to the Tulare County Fairgrounds, where they slept in livestock stalls, and then to the Rivers Camp in Arizona, where the temperature was at or above 109 degrees for twenty of their first thirty days there.

I interviewed a remarkable woman named Jean a few weeks ago. She is 94, is briskly intelligent, articulate and gracious. Her father owned the meat market on Branch Street in Arroyo Grande, population 1,090 in the 1940 census, and when his Japanese-American customers, farmers, came in to settle up before the buses came, he refused to take their money. “You keep it,” he told them. “You’re going to need it.”

When they came home three years later, he extended them easy credit until they could begin to bring in crops again. Jean showed me her father’s business ledgers, so I have no reason to doubt it when she told me that every one of those farmers paid her father back. In full.

This is Jean as a high-school freshman. The doll, with her handmade kimono, came to Jean from Gila River in gratitude for her family’s friendship. For their loyalty.

At ninety-four, that loyalty runs in Jean as deeply as it ever has. One of her best high-school friends was named Yoshi. I can find a photo of the two together in second grade. I found a photo, too, of two second-grade boys in the Arroyo Grande Grammar School in 1926. They would die, about twelve minutes apart, on USS Arizona.

Yoshi’s brother became a war hero. He won a battlefield promotion to lieutenant when he went behind Japanese lines in China to rescue a downed American flier.

Yoshi’s brother brought that flier in and made him safe. Jean never saw Yoshi again and, because of April 30, 1942, there is a part of her that can never feel safe.

The war, at its outset for America, killed two of our sailors. It would claim many more local young men, killing them in Ironbottom Sound off Guadalcanal and on the beach at Tarawa. It would kill a young paratrooper in Holland during Operation Market Garden. It would kill, with a sniper’s bullet, a tank-destoyer crewman on the German frontier three days before his first child, a son, was born.

The war killed neither Jean nor Yoshi. They remain its casualties, nonetheless.

We had to stop the interview for a moment. In remembering her friend, Jean was fighting hard to stop the tears. One escaped. That moment taught me so much history, and with such intensity, that I almost couldn’t bear it.

Classmates, Shipmates

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I was browsing an early 1980s version of Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow, the South County Historical Society journal, and I found this photograph of the Arroyo Grande Grammar School second grade in 1926-27.

The two boys who are circled are Wayne Morgan (top) and, in the front row, Jack Scruggs. Wayne’s father, Elmer, was a partner-owner of the Ford agency, today’s Doc Burnstein’s Ice Cream Parlor. Jack’s father had lost his farm earlier in the 1920s; at the time the class photo was taken, he worked with an oil prospecting company exploring the Huasna Valley.

That’s Wayne in the front, in a photo taken during this Ford Model A’s nationwide tour in 1931 (the car, fully restored, is owned by a Michigan car collector).

Nine years later, Wayne would join the Navy.

By the time Wayne Morgan graduated from eighth grade, Jack Scruggs’s family had moved to Long Beach. Both boys were musicians–Wayne played violin in Mr. Chapek’s orchestra (he was also an avid Boy Scout), but Jack would make music his career.

In 1940, Jack joined the Navy.

 

Jack is circled in this photo taken on November 22, 1941, during a Battle of the Bands competition among the ships of the Pacific Fleet. Jack was a trombonist in Navy Band 22–the band of USS Arizona.

So there’s a very good chance that the one-time classmates had a reunion on the great ship.

The tragic part of the story, of course, is that both were killed on Arizona. The concussion from a near-miss killed Jack just before 8 a.m. as the band was preparing to play the National Anthem during the colors ceremony. Wayne died about ten minutes later, when the ship blew up. So were all of Jack’s bandmates, killed at their action stations in the Number Two gun turret, just inboard from where the fatal bomb struck.

A few weeks before the attack, Jack had played “Happy Birthday” on the accordion for Rear Adm. Isaac Kidd’s wife–Kidd flew his flag on Arizona. All that was found of him after the attack was his Annapolis class ring, fused to a bulkhead.

 


Jack’s body was recovered; he came home to Long Beach. Wayne rests with his shipmates.

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I knew both were from Arroyo Grande, population 1,090 in 1940. I thought it extraordinary that two young men from such a small town wound up serving on the same ship. I had no idea that they were in the same grammar school class. 

Sometimes even the smallest footnotes in history tell compelling stories.

 

The explosion at City Point

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City Point, Virginia, was Grant’s supply base the last year of the war. It would would have astounded the men at Gone with the Wind’s barbecue because of its acres of artillery parks, stacked cannonballs, warehouses full of shoes, Springfield rifles, boxes of hardtack—the army cracker almost durable enough to build a home, and just as indigestible—row after row of tents in a city of soldiers, even its bakery, capable of turning out 100,000 loaves of bread a day. Quartermaster wagons offloaded cargo along a river controlled by navy ironclad gunboats; the wagons traveled in a never-ending stream so busy that it might have reminded the gentlemen from Margaret Mitchell’s Georgia of worker ants, charged with energy and purposeful.

 

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Wharf, City Point, Virginia

 

By 1865, even Lincoln’s presidential yacht, the River Queen, was anchored in the river when he visited with Grant and Sherman to sketch out the final acts of the war. Lincoln treasured these trips to see his soldiers, away from the constant assault of favor-seekers who paraded through his office. On another visit earlier in the war, to McClellan’s headquarters, Lincoln had idly picked up an ax on the deck of the Treasury Department yacht Miami, smiled, and lifted it, holding it straight out at arm’s length for several moments. None of Miami’s sailors, when they attempted it, could do the same. On April 14, 1865, John Wilkes Booth’s bullet would traverse Lincoln’s brain; logically, it should have killed him instantly, so it was only Lincoln’s will and physicality that allowed him to live for nine hours after the shot had been fired. George Monroe, another Arroyo Grande settler, would have felt the president’s loss in a very personal way: the 148th Ohio Infantry and Pvt. Monroe had been the recipients of a thank-you, a short Lincoln speech, in August 1864.

Even though  Monroe and his comrades were short-termers—100-day men, usually relegated to guard duty on railroads, at strategic bases like City Point, or as support troops—the 148th, came close, thanks to the spectacular attempt at sabotage, to never seeing Lincoln at all. On August 9, 1864, two Confederate secret agents penetrated the picket line that surrounded the wharves simply by crawling through it on their hands and knees. The letdown in security might at in part be traced to the heat that day. City Point’s pickets may have found themselves dulled by the kind of torpor ninety-eight-degree temperatures can induce. Even the stoic Grant found it hard to deal with the heat; he emerged from his tent and was doing his paperwork in his shirtsleeves.

 

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Grant, his son Fred and his wife Julia at City Point.

 

While Grant was at his labors, the lead Confederate agent, John Maxwell, left his companion behind and approached a barge, the J.E. Kendrick. From Maxwell’s report.

I approached cautiously the wharf, with my machine and powder covered by a small box. Finding the captain had come ashore from a barge then at the wharf, I seized the occasion to hurry forward with my box. Being halted by one of the wharf sentinels I succeeded in passing him by representing that the captain had ordered me to convey the box on board. Hailing a man from the barge I put the machine in motion and gave it in his charge. He carried it aboard.

The hapless man from the barge did not know that he’d just been handed–Maxwell’s “machine”—was a time bomb, packed with about twelve pounds of explosives. Maxwell and his accomplice did not know, since they were attempting both nonchalance and rapid flight at the same moment, that the box they’d delivered was now aboard an ammunition barge.

 

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Artist’s conception of the August explosion.

What a Union soldier heard, ten miles away, in the trenches outside Petersburg, Virginia, was like a thunderclap. What a group of officers near Grant’s headquarters heard in the middle of their poker game was a cannonball ripping through the canvas of their tent, from one side to the other, after the explosion had sent it flying. What a soldier felt was immense pain at the sight of a white horse, on which a woman had been seated at the moment of the explosion. The woman was gone, and a Whitworth bolt—a shell from an artillery rifle—had gone through her horse, now standing, shivering in shock. The soldier held the muzzle of his rifle next to the animal’s head and fired. What a woman on a riverboat nearby felt was a dull thud on the deck beside her. She noticed it was a human head. She picked it up by its hair and placed it carefully in a fire bucket full of water. The only other person as nonplussed as she was Grant, who looked with concern after some slightly wounded staff officers, gave a few orders, and returned to his paperwork.

The barge Kendrick was gone, as was much of the City Point wharf. So were unknown numbers of contrabands, former slaves who were working for pay as stevedores. Three members of Monroe’s 148th Ohio were killed, along with forty other soldiers, clerks and civilians, and over a hundred were wounded. The disaster was deemed an accident—not until after the war would it be revealed that it had been the act of John Maxwell, who escaped.

Nine days later, the wharf at City Point had been rebuilt and was as busy as it had been in the moments before Maxwell’s bomb had detonated. What happened at City Point was a tragedy, but it did nothing to stop the industrial machine that would continue to grind the Confederacy down. George Monroe and the 148th Ohio would soon be headed home; Adam Bair, the soldier who would settle in the Huasna Valley, and his 60th Ohio were three-year men, not 100-day men, and so they were headed for wherever Robert E. Lee was headed.

 

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City Point after the explosion; damage can still be seen in the foreground.

Pvt. Martinez

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It is difficult to imagine Normandy in 1944; it is a beautiful place today, as are its people: a simple bonjour earns an American tourist a  smile of appreciation, and the little villages are lovely, separated by pastures and farm fields, each with its distinctive little parish church. During the Middle Ages, as the skilled writer and Francophile Graham Robb notes, few villagers ever went beyond the sound of their parish church’s bells. The world beyond was like the ends of the earth.

It is not the ends of the earth, but the D-Day beaches are 5,500 miles away from the Arroyo Grande Valley. Three local men, killed in the campaign to capture and then and break free from Normandy, are buried at the American Cemetery at Colleville-sur-Mer, an almost impossibly beautiful place above Omaha Beach.

Below the cemetery, just offshore, a visitor today can see young men as they should be—exuberant and free– as they race tiny sailboats, their sails bright oranges and reds, just beyond the surf line, where on June 6, young men floated like dead leaves on the water’s surface. The invasion of Hitler’s Europe nearly failed here. It didn’t, but only because of an American generation that includes those who still hold the high ground at Colleville-sur-Mer.

 

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Omaha Beach today.

 

Up there, on the immaculate cemetery grounds, and not far from a famous American—the ebullient and popular Gen. Theodore Roosevelt Jr., felled by a massive heart attack soon after the invasion– lies a soldier as far removed from the Roosevelts’ patrician (if rambunctious) Oyster Bay home as a human being can be, in terms of both distance and social class.

He was a farm worker, Pvt. Domingo Martinez: Plot C, Row 13, Grave 38. Martinez is the soldier who more than likely knew the bean-stakes and the smell of sweet peas of prewar Arroyo Grande. The best that can be said is “more than likely:” the Arroyo Grande Valley is where a farm worker, as he’s listed in his 1943 Army enlistment records, would have found a job, or a series of jobs, following different harvests, and migrant farm workers are elusive for both historians and for census-takers.

Domingo may even have been double-counted in the 1940 Census; there are two “Domingo R. Martinez” entries, both from New Mexico; one is living in San Miguel County, hit hard and recovering from the Dust Bowl; he is living with his father, Fulgencio; his mother is deceased. But a second Domingo R. Martinez, also originally from New Mexico, is counted in the same census, and in California. He is living in Redlands, picking oranges, with a man named Thomas listed as his father, and Thomas is married to Aliga Martinez.

 

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They must be different men. But “Aliga” Martinez is listed as “Aleja” in a postwar Redlands City Directory, and it is Aleja who will file the 1946 request for the marble cross that marks Domingo’s grave at Colleville-sur-Mer. The form lists Redlands as her hometown.

It is the measure of a poor man’s life: researchers can’t be certain of where he lived when the war broke out. They know exactly where he died.

Two more soldiers, city boys compared to Martinez, are honored here at the American Cemetery, both from the county seat just to the north, An artillery officer. 2nd Lt. Claude Newlin, from San Luis Obispo, is buried here. Ironically, Newlin’s battalion, attached to the 35th Infantry Division, had spent a year training at the camp just north of his home town. Newlin had survived some of the costliest fighting of the campaign, near St. Lo, only to die hours before the 35th broke out of Normandy to join George Patton’s breath-taking race across France to Metz and the German frontier.

 

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Lt. Jack Langston’s fighter would have looked like this P-38, with is distinctive D-Day identification stripes.

 

For another San Luis Obispo soldier, an airman, there is a memorial, but no grave. On June 22, 2nd Lt. Jack Langston was flying his P-38 in a low-level attack on Cherbourg with his 367th Fighter Squadron when that city demonstrated the folly of ordering low-level attacks. Langston died that day with four other 367th pilots. His body was never found.

The farm worker, Pvt. Martinez, 26 years old, born and raised in New Mexico, now a Californian, found himself  in the streets of Cherbourg in June 1944, far below the speeding fighter planes. Martinez was fighting with the 313th Regiment of the 79th Infantry Division, the “Cross of Lorraine Division”–their unit symbol had been St. Joan’s–and the 79th had seen hard fighting in France before, in 1918.

They were sent into action near Cherbourg soon after landing on Utah Beach, and they fought their way into the heart of the port city–a port the Allies would need, because a capricious Channel storm destroyed the “Mulberry,” the artificial harbor built off Omaha. The Allied armies in France therefore faced an enormous supply problem. They needed a port to help feed, arm, and fuel the growing numbers of Allied solders in France. For the Allied command, SHAEF, Cherbourg was critical.

It was also difficult to take. Its bristling anti-aircraft defenses would claim Jack Langston. Massive coastal batteries could keep naval support for the Americans at bay, and the city’s Wehrmacht defenders, though not elite troops (20% of them were non-German conscripts) were securely dug in and they had nowhere to go, for they were backed into a corner of France, and so isolated that the only alternative to fighting was to leap into the sea.

Once they’d gotten inside Cherbourg, G.I.’s learned to hate street fighting almost instantly. Death came instantly from illusory shadows that a fallen G.I.’s comrades never saw, and from gunfire they sometimes never heard. In peacetime, a French city block can be melodious with the sounds of cafe music or the singing of children at play. In combat, the same block, seemingly empty, can muffle the report of a sniper’s rifle or generate echoes that make soldiers look anxiously in every direction at once.

 

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Street fighting, Cherbourg. These G.I.’s are from Martinez’s 79th Division.

 

It would be the 79th that would capture the fortress that dominated the city on June 26. Its commander surrendered three days later. Military historian John C . McManus notes that the men of the 79th that day were filthy, exhausted, and bearded, “like burlesque tramps,’ as one soldier said.  They got little rest. The division quickly shifted from urban combat to a drive through the farms and villages of the Cotentin Peninsula.

Now, American ground forces in Normandy faced a new, even more difficult challenge. Three weeks after D-Day, they had fallen far short of the objectives set for them by Allied planners and the staff officers working furiously over maps in Gen. Omar Bradley’s custom command trailer. The offensive in the Cotentin stalled in great part because the Germans had the advantage of fighting defensively, in the bocage, the Norman hedgerows, and they winnowed units like the 79th down.

 

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79th Division GIs sprint across a field bound by hedgerows.

 

The hedgerows enclosed fields plowed since Agincourt, or pasturage for fat Norman cows, and were a hopscotch of natural fortresses—roots and compacted earth had formed defensible walls.  The G.I.’s had to assault them, one by one, to try to root the defenders out.

When G.I.’s broke through a hedge and entered a field, the superb German machine gun, the MG42, hidden in the next hedge beyond, or positioned on the Americans’ flanks, annihilated entire rifle squads. It fired so rapidly that a burst sounded like canvas ripping.  Army films had incorporated the sound to try to desensitize trainees.

 

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Fighting in the bocage:  A 79th infantryman fires a bazooka.

 

So the Americans could hear, but never see, in the tangle of the hedges, who was killing them so efficiently. The bocage quickly transformed G.I.s, with supreme indifference, into either hardened veterans or into statistics.

American soldiers, adaptive and imaginative, eventually would develop the tactics to overcome the kind of war the Germans fought in the bocage. For the 79th, in early July, what was beyond the hedgerows may have been worse. The Germans would not wait for them this time.  They would attack.  This came soon after the 79th, along with the 82nd Airborne and the 90th Infantry Divisions, seized, at great cost, several hills around a key crossroads, Le Haye du Puits.

This should have compelled the enemy to abandon the town. They didn’t. They attacked instead, on July 7, intent on destroying the 79th in their positions on a ridge above the town.  The German soldiers, including SS-Panzer units, attacked with great ferocity and with great courage. These were not garrison troops, but hardened and determined professionals. In a day of fighting that ended only at nightfall, the 79th stopped them. This was the turning point. On the next day, another day of street fighting, the Americans would capture Le Haye du Puits.

 

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Le Haye du Puits is secured. The lead 79th division GI his carrying a mortar tube; one soldier behind him is carrying the mortar’s baseplate on his back.

 

Afterward, Signal Corps photographers attached to the 79th captured the images of some soldiers, like patrons arrived for their dinner reservation, enjoying a bottle of wine, sitting around a restaurant table set up on the street outside a partly-destroyed building; other photos reveal the faces of men as blank as those of sleepwalkers.  They are utterly worn out, used up,  by a month of ceaseless combat.

 

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Le Haye du Puits, July 1944

 

Ironically, Domingo Martinez survived all this and was killed days later, after the division, including his 313th Regiment, had taken up defensive positions to regather itself. He died on July 12, near a village named Bolleville, and so would not experience the energy and the jubilation of the breakout from the bocage.

With the breakout at month’s end, the Americans would inexorably roll up the Germans, uncover Paris, and liberate the city in August, standing aside to let Free French units and their prickly commander, Gen. Leclerc, enter first. Leclerc would have been furious to learn that Ernest Hemingway and some of his camp followers had preceded him and they were, with great offensive spirit, but also with deteriorating unit cohesion, busy liberating the bar at the Ritz Hotel.

 

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GI’s on parade, Paris, August 1944. These soldiers, from the 28th Infantry Division, marched directly out of Paris and back into combat.

 

It’s hard not to wish that Pvt. Martinez had been granted at least time enough to celebrate, as well.  And maybe, for a migrant farm worker and Dust Bowl refugee, even more time than that.

It is hard not to wish Domingo Martinez the time for a quiet talk with a little granddaughter. She is wearing a crisp white dress–it might be her First Communion– and wide-eyed and attentive, she is looking up at him while they are sitting, nestled together–she is feeling the wonderful safety that a grandfather’s love can provide– on the sofa. They are waiting together for the Sunday lunch his daughters are preparing after Mass, and he is telling the little girl about the five-day leave granted him that summer of 1944.

 

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He decided to visit Notre Dame. Once he’d entered the great church, he took his garrison cap off, crossed himself with holy water, and walked slowly down the nave, the silence pressing on his ears, past the clutter of the pews. There, delighted, he stopped and stood on a spot near the transept where he was suddenly bathed in brilliant, colored sunlight. This is the Rose Window’s gift to men and women of good faith.

 

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And now I am seventy-four

This is my left bicep at seventy-four. I still kind of like it, but I took the photo in part to reflect on the miraculous business of aging.

I have exercised most of my life. I began, at thirteen, with those cheap plastic plates filled with concrete. When I first met my much-beloved sister-in-law, Evie, I looked like an upside-down capital letter “L,” because I’d just hurt my back lifting and I had to reach up to shake her hand.

The rigor of exercise, of course, was compensation, because I was so small—a mere four-pounder at birth and no more than 115 lbs. as a senior in high school.

So I kept at it until things got Real Serious.

That would’ve been in the late 1970s and early 1980s, when a relationship ended and a little squirrely gym opened up in what is now the Downtown Cinema in SLO. It was this place, its claims greatly overblown in this 1984 ad, because the entire Health Fitness Center wasn’t much bigger than your typical Taco Bell.

Anyway, I was heartbroken and I reasoned, quite unreasonably, that small men need big muscles to find someone with whom they might fall in love. (It took me six years to find Elizabeth.)

And I didn’t eat Taco Bell. Nope. I ate a lot of eggs, both cooked and raw, mixed into yogurt-and-protein powder blends, taught myself to like liver and cottage cheese and the least-expensive cuts of steak. After I’d finished a meal, you’d hear faint “clicks” as my arteries snapped shut.

As to the workouts? Those I liked (the liver not so much), mostly because of my workout partner, Cleo. The Health Fitness Center had Universal machines and racks of chrome-plated dumbbells in the main workout area (Chrome? Can you imagine?) but my favorite place, with Cleo, was a little back room with Real Deal weight plates, black, some with flecks of rust, and a squat rack and a T-bar for bent rows. That was my happy place.

So I got big, like a plumaged bird, and began to affect tight polo shirts that felt good because of the way your biceps felt at the sleeves and the way your lats stretched the material when you’d bend to pick something up.

Oh, I was a Peacock Dandy.

That phase kind of ended when my brother and I volunteered as stagehands for a bodybuilding show at the SLO Veterans’ Building. The entrants, preening and oiled, nauseated me.

But I continued to exercise, off and on—weightlifting, running, rowing—and still do, but the photograph of my bicep is intended to remind me that all glory is fleeting.

Watching and feeling yourself age is fascinating. That seventy-four-year-old bicep is a mere hillock. Those washboard abs are still there, but hidden beneath a layer of Jabba the Hutt. Bench press reps with 200 lbs. (my son John does the same with 300) now require intense focus at 90 lbs. I don’t do squats anymore because I might melt, at the bottom of the exercise, like the Wicked Witch does when Dorothy throws water on her.

I have fallen a lot lately, and it takes me a long, long time to get up again. If I drop a dime on the floor, it stays there, waiting to be claimed. (If it’s a slice of lunch meat, well, that’s why we have dogs.) My once-long, fluid golf backswing is truncated by half. Getting laundry out of the dryer nearly constitutes a workout.

Of course, in my Health Fitness days, I never once imagined these things would happen to me, and I pitied the old men who’d gamely joined the gym. They moved so painfully and slowly.

And now I am one of them.

And there is great joy to be found here.

When you start to intuit and then confirm the process of mortality, you can begin to forgive yourself. All the mistakes you’ve made and all the hurts you’ve inflicted still register—sometimes painfully—but, incrementally, the pain begins to recede. You begin to look at your baby pictures or at Hollywood films made around the time of your birth (when men still wore felt hats) and you realize how lucky you are to have lived such a long time I’ve now outlived the lifespans of my father and two grandfathers. Lincoln, who always seemed ancient to me, died eighteen years my junior. I am older than Pope Leo.

Knowing these things, you can start to let go of your youth—I can no longer do reps with 200 lbs., but I can write about what it was like to experience the Beatles in 1964 or Prince in the 1980s. You find it much easier to time-travel, to 1863 Gettysburg or the 1928 Democratic Convention in New York City or to Oklahoma in the 1930s, with immense black dust clouds marshaling on the horizon.

It’s far easier to fall in love all over again with Myrna Loy or Lauren Bacall or Grace Kelly or Audrey Hepburn. You begin to realize how blessed you’ve been by living a life informed by film.


You return, without embarrassment, to the music of your youth. This is one of my favorite songs, and it always will be.


Best of all, you relive, if you were a teacher, the times you spent with young people. The first teenagers I taught are now approaching sixty and the last—this is Katrina and her little girl—are starting families.



When you forgive yourself, I think you can begin to accept the miracles—like the two above—that are life’s constants in your own life. And your own life, if you’re willing to calmly watch its ebb, has constant promise, too.

[For] life’s not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis.

–e.e. cummings

ICE at my carwash

I’ve been washing my car at this place since 1969, when “my car” was a yellow 1965 Mustang and this place had all of two stalls. It cost about a dollar, or four quarters, so washing your car was a judicious decision, usually arrived at when I had a high school date.

Now I am old (er), so I sometimes use the full-serve bay, $10, plus the $5 tip I leave for “the guys” who wash my little Mazda.

ICE arrested the guys on Thursday. Three of them. Threw them to the ground and them bundled them into an SUV. The masked men “were very rough,” the carwash manager said.

Rough. Not tough.

“Tough” means the carwash guys who work while your privileged gabacho ass remains seated. They kind of swarm around your car–the windows are up so you don’t hear them grunting as they wipe the car down–then they move you on with a wave, and there’s almost always a car just behind yours; the swarm renews. Sometimes there’s enough of an interruption so that they can manage a bite or two of a chorizo-and-egg burrito between jobs. Sometimes, when it’s hot, you can see steam rising from their soaked clothing. Undressing at the end of a workday like theirs must be glorious.

And then they start all over the next day.

I knew their grandfathers. I used to watch them cultivating row crops with the short hoe–el cortito–a tool so brutal in what it did to backs and knees and even internal organs that it has been banned in California.

If you think they’re taking our jobs, you can have these jobs.

If you think they’re murderers and rapists, look at the actual crime statistics that compare native Americans with immigrants.

If you think they’re sapping our economy, then do a little research on what they contribute in sales taxes. Or stand in line at Aldi or the Dollar Tree.

If you think they’re voting illegally, you are delusional.

If you think they’re ducking responsibility, then why have 34 soldiers and over 200 of their dependents been deported this year?

If you think they’re sponging thanks to Welfare, immigrants consume 24% fewer benefits than American citizens. And, if you define “Welfare” for what it is–aid to dependent children–and still oppose welfare benefits, congratulations. You must hate children.

If you’re proud that your ancestors came here “the right way,” then look at a map of America in 1880, at the beginning of the “tidal wave” of immigration to America. We had a continent to fill and so were begging for immigrants of the correct color to supplant the people who occupied the empty space.

Today, we have a similar empty space, not in land but in a generational blankness made up of Americans who won’t do the kinds of jobs the migrants will do willingly— and with a work ethic that would’ve made them ideal pioneers in 1880.




You think I want to be an American? I LOVE BEING A MEXICAN! I love my country!

My family and I were on a mission trip to Tijuana when this man, a little drunk, called out to us as we walked along the border fence, punctuated by crosses, each cross commemorating an “illegal” who crossed the border but died in the desert.




The drunken man–in vino veritas–may have been unknowingly echoing the Mexican poet Octavio Paz: “Poor Mexico: So far from God, so close to the United States!” The relationship between the two nations has always been so tightly interwoven as to erase the border violated so often–by American generals Zachary Scott and John J. Pershing, by the revolutionary Pancho Villa. The first victim of Villa’s revolution, which claimed a million lives, was an American woman hanging out her laundry in El Paso. Bullets don’t respect borders, either.

Neither do men with families to feed, nor whole families within hearing range of automatic rifle fire.

Periodically, the United States will dump corn on the world market and, in so doing, render thousands of peasant farmers—corn is a Mexican staple— bankrupt. “Low-value” exports, like corn, are now less vulnerable than Mexican manufactures, and President Trump’s tariff policy is devastating a nascent Mexican industrial economy. American consumption of illicit drugs generates mass murders or war in the streets in Tijuana or Guadalajara. The willful inattention to global climate change means that the flow of refugees from below the border, their crops destroyed, will surge far more than it ever has.

But these people love being Mexicans. But when you have a family to feed, or you are a young woman fleeing the murders associated with female workers at GM plants in Mexico, your choices are narrow and obvious. You find a coyote and you head north.

There will be a cross for you on the border fence. La Migra, ranchers and activists find human remains frequently in the desert, leather-like scraps of skin and bone intermixed with faded shirts, paper-thin jeans and comparatively well-preserved Nikes. They are brought to forensic labs in Arizona or New Mexico or Texas and there, pathologists, with immense tenderness, labor over the scraps, looking for any clue that might identify the human beings.

Sometimes they are lucky–a fourteen-year-old boy’s remains might match the missing fourteen-year-old from a village in Coahuila, last seen wearing a pair of Nike Air Jordans.

They will then zip the remains inside a body bag, place it into a wood coffin for shipment home.

If the coffin comes home at night, it will be guided by candlelight. Men will carry it and place it carefully in front of the family home. Then the pallbearers, the family and their neighbors will lower themselves to their knees and begin a Rosary for the boy in the box.

A field technician works over a body found in the desert in New Mexico. El Paso Times.

“Little Sparrows” fight back

One of Dolly Parton’s earlier recorded songs, “Little Sparrow,” was restored to history when its lyrics were discovered on the Ozark Plateau of Missouri, where my father grew up. Dolly’s performance of the old song–a warning to young women–was transcendent. Here it is, performed in London:


The same song, performed by Kristin Chenoweth, goes to a dark, dark place. I am sure both women, coming of age in show business, were assaulted by men–“Gentlemen Prefer Blondes.” Dolly, given the sweetness of her nature, has made the old song universal and powerful. This performance is much more visceral. Chenoweth is kicking some man from her past squarely in the balls—just what he deserves.

In one argument for my gender, it was Warren Zevon who wrote this song. Linda Rondstadt gets it. The song’s thinly disguised dark humor is intended to evoke the cruelty that men can do.




And John Lennon wrote this song, immortalized by Marianne Faithfull, about men—meaning all of us–and how powerless we are, a lesson being re-taught in today’s America.

This is the most jubilant comeback-to-men song ever recorded. Sadly, it became popular soon after Joe Biden’s election. The sexual predator who preceded and followed Biden will not say goodbye. This is Patty Smyth and Scandal. I am fond of this 80s classic.


Women fight back against men’s wars, as well. This song was so popular during the Civil War that it was banned.



And they fight back against the legacy of that war. Billie Holiday, 1959. “Strange Fruit” is a song about lynching.



I’m not out to make the case that all men are brutal. Let me apply a corrective. This is Joni Mitchell, with her dulcimer, singing a song that has to be so close to the truth as to draw blood. She is struggling in her relationship, but the man is worthy enough to deserve her. She draws a map of Canada, her home, on her cocktail napkin. She needs to come home to him.

I could drink a case of you/

And I’d still be on my feet…

This song reminds me of this glorious and intensely sexual poem:

“Wild nights – Wild nights!” (269)

Emily Dickinson

Wild nights – Wild nights!

Were I with thee

Wild nights should be

Our luxury!

Futile – the winds –

To a Heart in port –

Done with the Compass –

Done with the Chart!

Rowing in Eden –

Ah – the Sea!

Might I but moor – tonight –

In thee!


That’s a good place to end this essay. There is hope. I hope.







Pistol Pete Strikes Again


The Patton allusion is trite, but so was the speech, “The State of the Force,” delivered to noncoms this October. The most notable lines, of course, were about the elimination of “wokeness” in the American military.

No fatties, no trannies, no beardos, no weirdos,” Hegseth said. “No wimps, no radicals. Just warriors. Just tough, ready, committed troops … the ideological clowns are out,” he continued “The patriotic cowboys are in—with testosterone testing on top.”

The New Republic

I’d like to say that at this was the worst part, but it came in second. The winner was a reiteration of the far-right denial that “diversity is our strength.” Hegseth has disbanded the Defense–excuse me, War–Department’s DEI Office and has laid off dozens of flag officers who don’t toe the president’s line. And he attacked diversity in front of this audience:



Only unity will do. One of the most unified military forces I can think of, heavy cavalry, fought at Agincourt in 1415. The French army’s spearhead was made up of noblemen, on horseback, who charged Henry V’s outnumbered soldiers, many of them sick. And Henry’s army was anything but unified–Englishmen, Welshmen, Scots– who probably had a hard time understanding each other while speaking the same language.

One more divisive factor: the English army had mounted knights, as well, but commoners made up the bulk of their infantry, the most devastating, Hegseth noted in the same speech, were the longbowmen.

As they awaited their imminent destruction, the English were rallied, in Shakespeare’s incredible speech, by their king. If the words are Shakespeare’s, their meaning and force are pure Henry.


We few, we happy few, we band of brothers;
For he to-day that sheds his blood with me
Shall be my brother; be he ne’er so vile,
This day shall gentle his condition…

His army destroyed the French knights that day in 1415.

I saw this group photo today of the sailors killed on the destroyer Cole, a precursor to 9/11.

Polyglot.

Henry unified his troops by putting himself among them. Hegseth hectored his from a stage that stood above them. Which man is the more effective leader?

Far down in the transcript of his speech, in a passage savored by Hegseth, was his announcement that a new office, one that will develop robotic and “autonomous” (drone) warfare, is in the planning stages.

It’s called Project Agincourt.


Kenneth Branagh’s interpretation of Henry V’s speech:



Ten of Jimmy’s favorite rock and/or roll moments (there are many more)

  1. The final chord of “A Day in the Life,” the Beatles, Sgt Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band.

2. The opening to The Who’s “Eminence Front.”

3. The video is not recommended by dentists. But this is one of my favorite R & B songs. The little girl dancing is among my favorite moments.

4. The final note of Linda Ronstadt’s “Blue Bayou.”

5. Merrie Clayton’s backing vocal, “Gimme Shelter,” the Rolling Stones.




She’s no Merrie Clayton–who is?—but this young woman does just fine on the same song. Wow.




6. An indescribable and delicious little hip twitch that the Supremes do, in unison, ten seconds into the beginning of “Stop! In the Name of Love.”

7. I don’t get this video, which was before “video” was invented, but this might be my favorite rock song of all time–the intro, again, percussion and Steve Winwood on keyboards–grabs me every time.

8. The seemingly endless ending to Chicago Transport’s Authority “Beginnings.”


9. The late Pattie Santos’ vocals for “White Bird,” by It’s a Beautiful Day. The whole song is incredible. Santos died young in an automobile accident. No “moment” here, because I love the whole song.



10. Because I have always loved harmonies–the Beach Boys, for example, the Beatles, CSN and Y–this song, so evocative in the Tarantino film thanks to the Canyon murders that helped to end 1960s’ promise. The first two lines (“I used to live in New York City/Everything there was dark and dirty”) which was true in the 1960s–far, far less so now– hooked me.



Bonus: Proof our music was pretty good, from young folks. (The bassist is adorable.). Thanks, kids.



Four Baz Luhrman films

Mr. Rank Amateur Film Critic was once prepared to dislike Baz Lurhman films.

I mean, what kind of name is “Baz?” Almost as bad as “Elon.”

Then I saw “Moulin Rouge”–I was still teaching European history at AGHS, including a lesson on Paris at this time–and I sat in the theater with a stupid smile on my face until the sad part. I love this scene still and, dayamn, Ewan McGregor is handsome. (For a completely different film, his devoted father and husband in 2012’s “The Impossible,” about a family washed apart by a tsunami, restores your faith in dads.)


I had never seen a version of “The Great Gatsby” that I liked until Lurhmann’s. Leo was captivating, and the film’s palette–bright primary colors, like Jay’s roadster amid the ash-heaps–was amazing. In fact, I’d never been that fond of “Gatsby,” the novel–I preferred its prototype, a longish short story, “Winter Dreams.” The Luhrman film gave me a new appreciation for the novel.




So I went back to an earlier film, “Strictly Ballroom,” and the female lead, Tara Maurice, was not so captivating. She was dowdy. And then she kind of blossoms. The final ballroom contest scene is marvelous.



“Elvis” is not my favorite Luhrman film, with the great exceptions of the scenes that connect Elvis to his Black roots and the scene, just after this one, where he begins to gyrate at the Hayride. But this is the scene–I guess because I took a year of the History of the American South in college– that still mesmerizes me.


And, I realized that it would be cheating not to share that scene. Maybe it’s Tom Hanks’s (Forrest Gump/Captain Miller, the character who falls in love with Meg Ryan in two films) lurking, as the Colonel– like a cross between a venomous cobra and Jabba the Hutt–that bothers me about this film.






The Arc de Trumphe

My father was an Adlai Stevenson Democrat; my mother was an Eisenhower Republican, and, even in the 1950s, one lively political discussion in the kitchen ended with Mom dumping a colander of fresh Oceano strawberries upside-down on my father’s head.

JFK was the first Democrat my mother voted for, but that was because he was Irish.

So those are my political credentials. I am a Flaming Moderate.

As such, it dismayed me to hear the president* shift arguments about his Triumphal Arch. “Who’s it for?” a reporter asked in an Oval Office press gaggle last week. “Me.” Trump replied.

Later, he amended his reason for The Arch. The military wants it. Its height (250 feet, facing the 98-foot Lincoln Memorial) would make it ideal for launching drones and for storing a vast cache of ammunition intended for the snipers who would find vast fields of fire from atop The Arch.

It makes you wonder: For whom are the drones and the snipers intended? And precisely which flag officer implored that the president* build the Arch for those purposes?

In July 1830–the time of Les Miserables–the French overthrew King Charles X, who rode to his coronation in a gilt coach and entered the cathedral, on a white horse, in a full suit of armor. It went no better than the president’s* Reflecting Pool: hundreds of doves were released above the king and, being excited, they did what doves will do, and all over the King’s burnished armor.

His reign was marked by catastrophic crop failures, which generated inflation in the price of bread, which the king ignored. Charles responded to rising dissent by shuttering the press, dissolving the Chambre, the Chamber of Deputies, and by turning the cannon that defended Paris atop their ramparts inward, toward the city interior.

Parisians rebelled, in what they call the July Days. The cannonball, from July 28, 1830, was never removed from the wall to commemorate the downfall of a tyrant.


Thankfully, the tyrant abdicated–the revolution against his rule is also the subject of the Delacroix painting Liberty Leading the People-– and fled to England disguised as woman. The throne passed to his son, who likewise abdicated after a reign that lasted fifteen minutes.

Sadly, Charles did not yet have his own arch–the Arc de Triomphe would not be finished until six years after he’d fled France–and, even then, it’s sixteen feet shorter than the one the president* proposes for his snipers’ nest.

Mon Dieu.

Um, there’s this band from Belfast…

They don’t know they’ve been discovered by me, but, by golly, they have been.

Dea Matrona (“Divine Mother”) is a Belfast band whose core members, Mollie McGinn and Orláith Forsythe, are onetime schoolmates. They started out as buskers, playing on street corners, and now are a big deal.

Busking: (The drummer left to finish her education). Fleetwood Mac’s “Oh Well:”


Wait. Weren’t they starting another song at the end there?

Yup. Sure was. How can shoppers just walk past them? Well, that one fellow gets it

Now, they’re concert-ing.

Two more covers:

“Gloria,” from fellow Northern Irishman Van Morrison:

“Crossroads,” another from my day, by Cream:

And one of their own songs:

Another original, very Irish (the thorn trees and the horse are prominent in Irish mythology), but this is a song about hurting a loved one.



Yes, they are attractive and sexy and all that. But, far more important, they rock.

I just met a girl named Maria…

It’s almost a cliche now when two Sharks join the Jets in carrying Tony’s body backstage in 1961’s West Side Story. What I’d forgotten is this moment, when a Jet drapes Maria’s shawl over her head and shoulders, transforming her into a West Side Our Lady.

For those who object to a non-Latina, to Natalie Wood, playing Maria, her casting, given her Ukrainian ancestry, carries more freight today than it did in 1961. And, as the Jets recede from the playground, one of the last, Anybodys, is trans, a term that did not exist in 1961.

When Elizabeth and I watched the film again on TCM last night, the last people you see, beyond the chain-link fence, are the cops, with Chino, the shooter, in handcuffs. Then the screen goes black.

We’ve seen this film many times, but we went black, too. Silence. My inference is that the musical, in its 1957 debut on Broadway, was the same. Silence. It hurt too much.

It was also too powerful. The flip side of that 1957 reaction is that wealthy Manhattanites were suddenly confronted with the humanity of the Sharks and their barrio neighbors. They’ve had to deal with this discomfort ever since. The only one who hasn’t, from Queens, is the man who claims to be our president, the man who mocked Puerto Rico with an exaggerated Spanish pronunciation of the island and who flipped paper towels toward Puerto Ricans. hurricane victims, as if he were shooting free throws.

But he’s a despicable man, and he’s killed, through willful inattention, far more people than Chino or Tony.



We’re here! the film seemed to say about Latino immigrants. We were almost here! this border fence near Tijuana says about Mexicans found dead, dry as driftwood, in the desert on the far side of their border.

The late comedian Ralphie May, in an incredibly politically incorrect way, explained why deportation is an error in judgment:



And in the casually insolent and imprecise way that typifies ICE, we run the chance of losing horsewomen. This Mexican is an American.

Returning to the East Coast, it was Wood’s Maria that brought us this:

And it think it’s safe to say that this film had the kind of staying power that compelled Spielberg, a film student as well as a filmmaker, to make his version:

And In the Heights took us into beauty parlors, bodegas and nightclubs inside barrios we would never otherwise imagine:


Antonio Banderas and Katya Virshilas took us farther south, to Argentina

As did Robert DuVall, dreamily on his way home, in Assassination Tango:



And now we are home: Academy-Award caliber Salsa, male, Eduardo, Despicable Me 2:

Home again. New York City again, Salsa again, but this time it’s Academy-Award caliber female. Penelope Cruz woos her police officer boyfriend, the late Paul Walker.

Oh, my.

And “home” implies a flag, a flag that you’re proud of. If you’re an immigrant from somewhere in Latin America, your “other” flag is the American flag: the flag of Los Estados Unidos Americanos.

I’m wearing a necklace that depicts the cross of St. Brigid, the Irish patroness, and Ireland is where many of my ancestors came from. I haven’t forgotten, and neither have these young people forgotten, our long-ago homelands. There is great joy to be found in remembering our origins–remembering, I think, only intensifies the joy we once felt–and seek to fell again–in being Americans.

Hope is the thing with feathers…



“Hope” is the thing with feathers –
That perches in the soul –
And sings the tune without the words –
And never stops – at all –
And sweetest – in the Gale – is heard –
And sore must be the storm –
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm –
I’ve heard it in the chillest land –
And on the strangest Sea –
Yet – never – in Extremity,
It asked a crumb – of me –

Emily Dickinson

Studies show that  30–50% of patients  experience clinically significant depressive symptoms within the first year after craniotomy, with the risk highest in the first few weeks to months. This is especially true if the surgery was for a brain tumor or other neurological condition, where the trauma, changes in brain chemistry, and situational stressors can trigger depression.

“Dr. Google”

Yep. Just hit this rut in the road, realizing it last night: lethargy, irritability, loss of interest, loss of motivation.

So, it’s time to turn to Hope. This blog post is for me, but it’s for you, too.

Some of the videos I’ve created about Hope:



Florence again.



Arroyo Grande.



A story’s unexpected ending, from my childhood.


Death.


Rebirth.